Sunday, December 7, 2014

I was loved once

Once I was loved.
Today I know you are with another woman.
For good and forever.
However I know you visited my profile.
And yet you decided to get married to another soul.
Now I think I will wonder for the rest of my life and the next, if not for eternity.
I committed the worst mistake in history. I let you go and now I will pay forever and ever.
You were perfect, you were amazing, you were the most beautiful man in my life and for that I will pay forever.
I guess I should get used to the idea of living alone now that I know no one will ever fit inside of your shoes.
You supported me like no one else did.
You loved me like I was never been loved again.
You talked to me with tender and passion, with love and with reason.
You did everything in your power to help me no matter what, and yet I hesitated and let you go.

I cannot tell you how much I would regret this or for how long I would keep punishing myself for not letting you go. For not value you the way and at the time I should have had.

What do you do about true love? Shall I just let someone else take over or could it be better live the space empty forever?

God will be my allied and my adviser for as long as I have some strength I will try to make things in my life better alone because they are not with you. And forgive me on my weak days if I succumb to others arms, it is just that sometimes it feels so cold here without you around anymore.